| new year's isn't good...again |
[Dec. 31st, 2004|05:37 pm] |
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so it's been a long time since i've written in here. a lot has happened. but if you know me, you know all about it, so there's no need explaining it all in here. so i won't.
as all of you should know, it's new year's eve. another year has flown by without much to be proud of. i believe this has been one of the worst years, but at the same time, one of the best. we lost some real good people. but it's best not to talk about that tonight.
i was watching tv this morning, and there was this interview with this lady talking about that cop that was being held hostage (who is now dead...go figure) and she said "i'll just continue to pray to god and hope he makes it out okay." that comment really sealed all these mixed feelings i've been having about religion in the past couple weeks. if there's one thing i've learned in the past year, it's that praying to god is useless. god feels nothing. if he was as good as some people say he is, then why the fuck does he keep letting us lose the best of the best? how can one pray to this "all-powerful, and just" god if he takes away those we love so dearly? i just don't see how any of it makes any sense.
now i'm noting saying to run right out and turn your cruifixes upside down and worship satan, because i don't do that shit either. but you have to take this into consideration...
out of the two, which is the greater evil?
Now maybe it was just how i was brought up, but i was always told that Satan is evil. And, of course, God is great. But if it's God that creates life and looks after us all, and if he's the one to pray to, how can he allow some of us to be so hurt?
i'm not 100% done with my thoughts on the issue, because it's always changing, and i'm always thinking of new things, but as of now...this God thing just doesn't work for me.
Anyways, I hope those of you that read this are having a nice New Year's Eve. I, however, am not.
Let's hope our New Year's resolutions work out Laura.
Take care everyone. |
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